|||_________________________________________________________________|||This to that .. Very sad  -Anti- Deppresants and Anti- stress pill didnt work properly... -Barely ever exercise and go to the gym . -Always asleep! -Abusing myself with food. - Im having A hardtime in forcing myself to not have at least 1 more meal at macdonolds.... -Everythought of Pain and Doubts. One Packet of cheezy Doritoz -EveryStomach Ache . 2 bowls of " Ngao lam Wan Tan Cho Min " noodles with extra plate of chiken and eggs. Plus ; -Lawrence is one hell of a cook , so basically all drowned in his cooking oil and minced beef, and buttered Rice. Just when I thought no matter how much i eat , i would still be keeping the slenderness... now hell NOOO !..
||__________________________________________________________||||____________LOVELIFE__________||| isnt it so overrated, not saying what you feel, so you end up watching chances fade and just be wondering what's ... actually real |  - The things Ive been doubting about werent so much to be delivered into breaking something extrodinary. There I messed up again. I wont be saying much . Just knowing everything is going to be inplaced now with me and lawrence. It wasnt long enought until we felt there was something missing . Well heres my second chance, I just realized to every guy that broke my heart , i just say alright " shu!" . But I knew already This was more that what i had thought it would be like. My heart actually cant let this person go. They say If A relationship were a Piece of windowed glass , A problem comes along , you hurt one another , the glass breaks, But when you dicided to let it pass both of your heads by listening to your hearts thats actually pulling you back together and all you want to feel is both of lips being touched and hugs being cuddled. You stick on the glass back in together . other that that .., No other glass would be perfect if it didnt have a Piece of Scar in between em all. So Yes, there might be a scar in us both . and things will be harder for us to cope with someday thinking the last thing we ever want to remeber was when we both almost let go . , And it Scares me so bad thinking what more else could happen to us both . Sometimes fights and arguement wont fix a relationship. You just want to feel the happiness and laughter with one another each and everysingle day you see each other. , not having to doubt a single thing if you so happen to be a very pessimistic young lady with a big ego inside their head . Its not that important for me to maintain the relation , only thing that matters most is knowing that there is still that love you feel the first kiss , first glanced ,tingles and evrything all..... inside that box of yours...  
|We'll make it through it all . i Know now how much he loves me that made me break his heart just by doubting things. But its getting better now, wer building in together more . and finally , he's believed me now , listening to my heart singing loadz of i love yous to one and only him..| I love him more now then i loved him then. | To all : Dont give US Reasons , give us Choices. | Till then .. avoiding the " BUTS " 
 
| the colour back in my life. | | NEW BOOK | FRESH START | MY MAN | 
+|||||||||||+ [ Xtra edited added ] Last night in his crib lyin down . baby was like " oh my lord ! we scratch eachothers butts now.??!" i wanted him to help me scratch :P poor him .- we are the "SCRATCHY BUTT COUPLE " | 
